My House

Now that I own a house, I have a very strange feeling of responsibility towards my town. Never felt that before when I used to live in an apartment. I want to make my town the bestest, cleanest and coolest town under the sun.

Happy Monday

Does everyone go through the same struggles? Or do some people not even bother? Does everyone strive to be better people? No one is perfect. I go through this constant fight with myself where I want to be a better person. Where I want to control my emotions and handle it the perfect way, whatever that is. We all know that there is no written rule to reacting and nothing is perfect. But, decency and rationality should be one of the pre reqs of any reaction or action. I have to remember to be a better person. I mean well and I know that. My issue is the delivery. The delivery of the emotions. Sadly, how you react to emotions is what life is all about. It’s not about how you think in your heart.
The nets have lost 5 in a row. We are looking listless and impotent. The Indian cricket team has always looked useless. There is nothing new about that. In a country of over a billion people, we are stuck with a quite a few incompetent men. Some people have to go. It is time. Are you telling me that out of all the people that we have in our mother land, we cannot find 11 guys who are mentally strong and can perform on a consistent basis? If we can have successful people in the business world, in the medical world, why in the name of god can’t we have 11 professionals who know where they stand and how to work their way to success? Back to my nets, I am watching Lawrence Frank and I see a man with not a lot of innovation. He has hit a wall and better re-invent himself soon. This is his third full year as coach and he has to raise his hand to be counted. His design plays have become very predictable and many players lack some of the basic abilities. The ball doesn’t come to you during a rebound. You have to get to the ball. Jason Kidd epitomizes the perfect rebound man. An uncanny ability to be at the right place at the right time and quick hands that grab the ball. Miki Moore catches the ball like a cloud in the air and frails his arms around like an orangutan rather than attack the ball. The others players are not very aggressive with their rebounding technique and those second chance points are killing us.
The whole of last week was very hectic. We moved to our new house and it is a very exciting time. The walls are empty, the rooms are empty and all our stuff is stowed away in boxes. I couldn’t find a shirt to wear to work today. I almost got lost getting to work today as I tried a new route. My wife and me will get slowly used to our new life. I feel very bad for her. Her door to door will probably go up by 15 to 20 mins each way. I guess we were spoilt in our apartment where all she had to do was hop and skip her way to the train station. Now, it is a little different. My drive is going up a little too as I am away from the parkway.

Questions from a (going to be)thirty year old.

Do you want to be successful in a small company? Do you want to be successful in a big company? Which is better? Do you want to get an MBA from an Ivy League school or from a so so school? Does pedigree matter? Are you at par with your class mates? Are you better than where your class mates are? Did you marry the right girl? Are you still with that right girl? Do you have a house? Do you have a car? Do you have 2 cars? Do you have a Benz, BMW or an Audi? Do you have a Toyota? Do you have an 1100 cc bike? Do you have a healthy bank balance? Do you still look good? Are you fat? Are you confident? Did you kinda sorta find yourself? Did you forget yourself?

Home

6 feet 1, 200 lbs. I have been the same weight for the past 3 years. Hopefully, I can manage to reverse it to 180 lbs at some point of time.
SONY has the best TV’s under the sun. I have a 50 Inch SXRD, my FIL has the same, my BIL has the 42 Inch one and my wife’s uncle also has the 50 Inch SXRD. The clarity is mind blowing. The high def stuff is certainly worth the money. I don’t think anyone makes it better than SONY. I remember back in the early 80’s my uncle came back from Nigeria and brought back the SONY 30 Inch TRINITRON. It was an awesome TV. It was my in my grandma’s house for years and still must be around. The longevity of the product is amazing.
We are closing the next week. Moving into a three bedroom town home. You sometimes don’t even realize. You don’t realize how much you have progressed in life and how much you can actually afford. A little money and a security that you will be able to make it on a consistent basis makes you “move on” in life as they say to bigger and better things. That is exactly what mademoiselle and I are doing. Just like all the other so called grown ups who are successful out there. Same cycles and same path. We are like trained panzees and we practice life only on a certain well traveled path. Anyways back to what I was saying. It’s a nice town and my community is sandwiched between a golf course on the front, a park on one side and a huge molecular institute on the other side. I don’t know what the fourth side faces. We face the molecular technology building. It is probably 100 years old and is three fourths empty. It has an eerie look to it and has always attracted my attention. It on a hill and when the moon is out, it looks like this building is all alone and touching the moon. Anyways, my entrance and the master bedroom face it. I also was told that the movie “A beautiful mind” was shot right here. I came home and researched it. It is true and now I have the bragging rights. My house faces the backside of the Molecular institute where the movie “A beautiful mind” was shot.
We will be moving the next week and Insha Allah, everything works out the right way. The good part is I can learn to golf during summer. It’s like I have a golf course in my backyard.
Jersey has been good to me. Jersey is home. Jersey is a shit hole but you kind of get used to it. The hustle, the bustle and the opportunities. The screwed up roads and the nutcase drivers. The expensive insurance and the even more expensive property taxes. You make all that money and you give it right back. You work like a dog and try to make it worthwhile. Your money isn’t worth much here and it’s worth twice its value somewhere in the mid west. They take your money away by tolls. It is amazing, how much of shit you have to spend your money on. But, this is Jersey. This is home. This is the true spirit of the United States. I am Indian, African Indian, American Indian, Italian American Indian and anything else you want to throw my way. I almost forgot, Jersey is where the nets reside currently led by the warrior Jason Frederick Kidd.
Jersey is home.

Randomness Galore

So much happening all the time. It gets overwhelming. I would rather have a beer and watch a game. I could watch basketball all day.
Wish I were a kid. Where if I didn’t do something, it wouldn’t actually matter a dog’s balls
Most people don’t know what the hell they are doing. The fact is not all of us are evolved as peoples. I have come to realize that most people are full of shit. Life is all about trying different permutations and combinations. If it clicks you succeed and if you don’t, you are pretty much fucked. There is no set formula for success other than hard work and perseverance and hopefully the ball falls on your side. If it doesn’t, you are fucked again. There are no god damn answers to life. No one has them. It is a myriad combination of luck, timing and presence. If it clicks, you are good and if not, you can suck your thumb. Your space will change and you will be cocooned in your self obsessed space.
We are all zombies by our own creation. We adhere to morality, social responsibility and truth. For fuck knows what.

Ok back to earth. I love my job and I want to make shit loads of money. I am going to be 30 in a month. The nets are two games old in this infant season and we are looking ok. All my loved ones are fine and that’s all I can ask for.
I have a tooth that is bothering me. I hope the son of a bitch goes back into his dormant self cos I really hate going to the dentist. The last time this tooth acted up, I went through some sick ass pain. I was a student then and didn’t have dental insurance. I went to this Sindhi dentist down in Fords and she really screwed it up. That was about 7 years ago.
I remember those days. It was my first job after my masters and I was so carefree. I had fun at my job and called in sick many times after a night of drinking. I didn’t care and it was awesome. I could live with one third of what I am making right now and not think about other shit. The more you make, the more you spend. Nothing new about that. Generations repeat the same mistakes at all levels.
By the way, I think the ball has been falling on my side for the past year or so. Who says marriage doesn’t do good things?